I don't know how to proceed. I haven't gotten as far as this, and I wasn't actually expecting an answer until two years time. Melissa, you idiot! What have you done, saying yes without any thought to it! Now this is the stage where apparently, people 'doubt', and where people have those so called. 'second thoughts'. History class is not technically easy for me to stay focused, since I'm always on my alert, trying to look calm most of the time. I need time, but I shouldn't ask for that. I had so much time. And now, this is it. This is now. I have to act like I absolutely wouldn't want this anything for the world! Ooohh. I can't even look at that person. Not even talk to them straight in the eye. A glimpse, and I talk to somebody else. I purposely make them feel ignored. INJECT ME WITH SOMETHING PLEASE. Medicine, anything. What do I do? I'm sorry if I have yet to tell some people. I will in time, but I'm scared of telling everybody. Do I REALLY want this.